Lady-Florence-LC

Have you ever had a story which you just have to tell? One which consumes your thoughts and even when you try to write something new you still end up in the same circle? Yet, when you try to write that story it continues to slip through your finger? That, no matter how hard you try you just can't seem to do it justice. Your characters are screaming at you and the walls of their world is melting. Well I kind of have that feeling. I gave myself this summer to write my story. If I couldn't then I'd accept the reality that it wasn't meant to be. To give up my daydreams, the craziness of the world I see beyond me and focus on the real world. T

So, exams are finally over and this month of non stop revision is finally over, which can mean only one thing...free time to write~ At present I'm in the process of overhauling my 'Next Generation' series. I wanted to add and change one or two things which was all well and good to begin with but it means I have to completely screw with the timeline which adds confusion when one thing leads to another and although the whole thing is meant to be circular as such I suddenly have right angles. Never mind, have time to resolve this. Another bonus, I think I've found a path to follow so I've changed my study at uni and hopefully won't regret it.

A year has passed and nothing has changed. I've decisions to make but I just can't seem to decide. Do I finish Uni next year or the year after? A BSc or a MChem? Do I even care? I'm fighting for results, fighting to get perfect grades all for a future I don't even know if I want. Not in the sense, shall I drop dead tomorrow, but rather do I want to be a scientist? Do I want to bind myself to the real world? Get a job, a mortgage, grow old and die? I know eventually I need to face the world but right now...? I dunno. There's a lot more to life that simply surviving. I guess I'm just trying to work out what mine means to me right now.